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Acknowledging My Own Ignorance

By August 9, 2020December 9th, 20207 Comments



It’s nice to feel confident about one’s own ability to complete a task.  It can be an easy  deceit to believe you’re well-informed.  This summer I’ve been struck down on both accounts.  The Black Lives Matter movement taught me some much needed lessons about the extent of racism in our country.  This automatically translated into a Big Reveal about my own level of willful ignorance concerning black lives.  My ignorance equaled disinterest, which I could stupidly justify by my ignorance of the truth. It was all too easy to pretend that overt racism in the USA was a thing of the past.  I will now try to make up for the egregious oversights of my lack of knowledge. There is no way to justify ignorance about the suffering of my fellow men and women.

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I had an intimidating 8th grade social studies teacher who liked to say, almost on a daily basis, “Ignorance of the law is NO excuse.”  She LOVED to say this. In an authentic Irish accent.   I think she meant that it was incumbent upon us students to know what the law was. Now, decades later, thinking about her warning, I realize that my own ignorance about Black Lives stemmed from somehow believing I had no need to Know. Believing everything was ok, removed my responsibility to help make things right.

I also let myself believe that I could upgrade my blog myself, figuring out the challenges with the skills I’d already acquired. ha. ha. ha.

Ha. ha. ha. ha ha.

Those of you who have followed me saw how far that delusion traveled!  I took a support lesson, saw a few glimpses of blue sky, but for the most part, this little exercise has revealed just how lacking my computer skills are. In other words, I have a very long way to go to be able to make the changes I’d like.  Do I put my tail between my legs and just return to the old way of doing things that was simple, clearcut and boring?  The answer here is that I consider my computer skills to be  still a work in progress.  I’ll have to see some progress, or I’ll lose my readership.  So please hang in there with me.  I’m trying.oblivious


Dianne Vapnek

In an attempt to slow life's quickening pace, I'm writing to share my personal perspective on the aging process, its dilemmas, the humorous self-deception, the insights and the adventure of it all. I spent the bulk of my time in beautiful Santa Barbara, CA, but manage to get to NYC a few times times a year. I've been a dancer/dance teacher and dance supporter almost all my life. For the past20years, I help create and produce a month-long creative residency in Santa Barbara for contemporary American choreographers and their dancers. It's been incredibly gratifying. This year, I decided it's time to retire! Big change. I also now spend several weeks a year in Kyoto Japan, residing for several weeks in the spring and the fall. I've been magnetically attracted to Japan for many years. Now I live out a dream to live there part-time.


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